drowning

i'm reaching for something
that's not there
never has been there.

i'm reaching for you
out for you,
nowhere to be found
in the sea of lies and regret
and sweet words
and the false words crawling
off of your tongue
running over your curling lips
smiling at me now;

i never wanted this
baby
don't.

we're falling apart,
just
let
it
go.

the undertow is much
much too strong
for even the strongest of the strong.

especially in the world
of discarded love.